This week has been so incredible. The topic is the Holy Spirit, which is something I've always believed in but never really put in to practice. I always viewed it as that the Holy Spirit lives inside of you, but that's about it. I've been learning what it is to really be in relationship with Him, in constant conversation. I've been learning about the baptism of the Holy Spirit and how it's not some weird thing that crazy people do to put on a show. It basically just means to have Him filling you more and more.
Last night, we had a night of worship. I can't even describe how amazing it was. God was definitely there. Our speaker and some people from different schools went around laying their hands on everyone and asking the Holy Spirit to fill them. The things people did when He came on them were crazy. There were people who fell on the floor laughing, people crying, people dancing, people drunk on the Spirit, everything. It's so weird how I'm so okay with everything now. During corporate week, everything was freaking me out and I was angry all the time. God has given me so much peace about everything going on around me. He's been reminding me that it's not about what I'm seeing them do, but what He is doing in their heart. I don't know why, but one of the ways He chooses to work is through this. He uses this process to break off lies and restore people's hearts. He's breaking through to so many through this. So many of us come from conservative backgrounds and we've just been coming to the realization that God is so much bigger than the box we put Him in. All of this is completely biblical too, it's just that we are so uncomfortable with it because it's not what we're used to. But God doesn't need to make us comfortable. He doesn't work how we want Him to all the time.
Towards the end of this worship, something crazy started to happen. We started to sing this song without words. It got louder and louder and louder until all of us knew it wasn't just us in the room anymore. The presence of the Lord was so strong - stronger than I've ever experienced before in my life. Even our speaker, who has been through some crazy stuff, said that it was one of the most intense nights she's ever seen. People said they saw angels in the room. It was so crazy and way better than I can even explain. It was like a tiny tiny glimpse of what I imagine heaven like. Everyone worshipping God with all they have and dancing like they've never danced and shouting as loud as they can. It's going to be so good.
Anyways, the night was so great for me. I cried, I laughed, I felt like I was floating, and at the end of the night I just couldn't stop smiling. He's so wonderful. I can't even believe the love He has for me. He loves me like He loves no one else and it just makes me so happy. I'm actually falling in love with Him.
I guess what I'm really trying to get across is that God is doing something crazy with this school. I don't know what it is and I don't know how to explain it, but He is starting to show a little bit of Himself  to us. Even that tiny tiny bit that we saw last night is not anything compared to the greatness that He is. He is capable of anything. He is starting a revival across the earth. Our speaker was telling us this morning of stories of people who God is working through with healing and teleporting and raising people from the dead. Really crazy stuff. But why should God be limited to anything?
If you'd like to read some of the notes from lectures this week, you can go to our speaker's website. She has all the notes on there. I don't agree with everything she teaches, but she does have some good points and helped me understand this so much more.
I know that some of you will read this and start to think that I'm in some sort of cult or something. Believe me, when I first came that's what I thought too. I would really encourage you to seek God on this. Read the Bible - there is some pretty crazy stuff in there, too. You can really look at anything Jesus did as being crazy. But it's not, He's God. Seriously, I was probably one of the biggest doubters of this, but God has done so much in me through this and I'd really encourage you to look into it for yourself.

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1. Unknown on June 10, 2010 at 10:12 PM

   On raising people from the dead, my instructor was telling us the other day of a man who had been declared dead at Overlake by the emergency doc (nurses and docs felt no pulses and there had been no breathing for a full few minutes), family cried and left the room and some nurse walks in 20 minutes later to find the patient conscious again. I believe in miracles and I'm not sure I would word them the way some radical-speaking people would, but I do believe in many of the same good things that God gives. I think that one of the greatest gifts God has shown me is the ability to love other people regardless of their beliefs and to be able to fellowship with other Christ-followers who don't believe exactly as I believe.