So, a few days ago, I started to seriously pray about not going this year. When God said that was right, I was so upset. I cried for a few days. I really really didn't want that to be the answer. I asked Him for confirmation. He gave me so much confirmation, every single day. So much so that I couldn't ignore it.
You don't even know how much I wanted to go this year. I prayed and prayed for God to let this be the year, but it's not. He has a different plan for me than I have for myself, but His is much much better. He has given me a peace about waiting. It's okay with me now. I won't be able to go with all those people I love, but soon there will be more people I'll love. I still don't really know the reasons why, but He does. That's all I can take comfort in right now. He's still going to do incredible things. I'm glad to have more time with my family before I go. This time will give me more opportunities for fundraising and saving up money. It'll give me time to tell more people around here about social injustice.
Who knows what God has in store for this next year? I have a feeling He's going to do some pretty incredible things here in Seattle. I have a feeling He's still going to do some pretty incredible things through my dear friends all over the world.
My plan for now is just to find a job and work full-time until next January. Let me know if you know of anything. I'll still be fundraising and finding supporters to partner with me. I'd like to get involved in some ministries around here as well. We'll see what Jesus brings up.
I'm so proud of you. I know how much you wanted to go, and how hard it must be for you--but way to stick with what you know God wants.